The loves of my life

I love my children more than anything or anyone in the world. I am constantly hard on myself that I am not a good enough mother. Read "The Glass Castle," that'll set your priorities straight. Jeannette Walls' mother didn't even put food on the table. I don't feel so bad now that my house is a little messy, I know we don't wallow in garbage or filth.

David has been great and really hard to deal with. He has been very adventurous, I guess you could say. In the last month he has had three brushes with death and I have been scared to death to let him out of my sight. How do you get through to a 3-year old that something is life threatening when they don't have a concept of death? He bonked his head at the pool and had to go to the ER, then he jumped into the deep end of the pool and another dad had to jump in after him (fully clothed!) to save his ass and then we lost him for a full 5-7 minutes at JC Penney. I was sobbing in the middle of the store and he was hiding under the luggage display because he was pooping in his pull-up. When he kisses me and tells me he loves me all is forgiven, but everytime I think of it I start getting choked up.

Annalise is girly girl who loves to do art and play hard. She is stubborn, but sweet. She drives me crazy when she debates me and uses the same tactics I use to control her behavior on me.

I love these babies and want to keep them close to me to save them from harm, but know that isn't possible. David actually began swimming on his own this weekend! If I let them go a little, they grow into their own little people with talents. Its just so hard to do!